08 Jul 2004

Back to the school of life.

08 Jul 2004

My stealthy pursuit has led me nowhere. She’s found another. Walking on air, above the clouds. No wonder she seemed more cheerful. Ah well, irregardless of this feeling of somehow being left out, I might as well cherish what I have now, and thank God for it.

Still… it’s not so easy to let go.

Would it be better if life was a manga? Chockful of twists and turns that lead to a certain end? Maybe. But life has no end.

Stayed home last night, having to politely refuse call outs for mahjong. Tonight however, I’ll be spending dinner with Merv and Fish as always, and make the most of my singularity.

And I may have to find a new host. VM is not doing very well, so we may close shop soon. All partners, including myself, have been busy with work, so the business has been neglected rather badly. A lesson learnt is that… you need to MEET people in order to get things done. And that’s one thing I’m not so good at. Hopefully that’ll improve throughout my career here with ***. I had to do a presentation to 1200 people last month, and it wasn’t that bad (although I just had 1 slide to talk about). I just need to get rid of the initial anxiety of being rejected.

You know, that last sentence is very much related to my love life. Maybe if I got rejected once, I’d be more ready to face those situations later. To tell you the truth, I’ve never ever confessed to a girl before. Well, it’d probably be too much of me to say that it has always been the other way round, but it was. Yet I was a r34l g33k then. Who cares about girls when you have Dune 2?

Dammit.

Watching:-
Ghost in the Shell SAC

Reading:-
Ichigo 100%, GANTZ

Listening:-
Nokia 6230 MP3 ringtones. 😛

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  1. t July 10th, 2004 12:41AM

    hey koa.

    *sigh* I hate to see you so despondent. I won’t tell you to cheer up, because these things take time. I won’t tell you to let go, or any other instuctions for that matter, because it’s for you to work out in your own good time and place.

    And hey, who ever said being single was a bad thing? 😉

    Take care, koa *hug*

    P/S: If Merv is giving you a hard time, let me know. I’ll take him down a peg or two ;P

  2. potatoe July 10th, 2004 3:24PM

    rejection ? ceh. just be thick skin. and practise. the more u practise the better u become. nothing to lose lar.

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